Hey everyone! So I was wondering if I could get all yalls opinion on something. (It's a bit long sorry but I wanted to make sure I explained all the factors before asking y'all). I used to be an all star cheerleader for about 4 years and cheered in school for 2 years. I loved all star cheer with all my heart but I was going through a really rough time in life during the same time and it caused ALOT of problems for me at my gym. (I mean ALOT.) Without getting too into all that i did wrong and messed up bad on, when I graduated high school, I had to quit because I was too old for any team/level besides level 6 and I wasn't good enough to be on that team at my gym even though people told me to still go for it. I could have been amazing but I bailed in a layout and got a year long block that prevented me from even doing a tuck (and that was my greatest skill. I was a 'power house' as you'd call it and it hurt that much more that I wasn't throwing anything anymore and it prevented me from continuing moving up). Its hung over my head ever since. I'm 19 now and it's been about 2 years since I stopped cheering. I've never stopped missing it and I honestly cry myself to sleep most nights thinking about how different things could have been for me if I wasn't a coward and threw my tumbling and didn't cause such an unnecessary mess from start to finish those 4 years. Honestly, it's haunted me. I've really wanted to get back into it, I can't take not cheering anymore, especially since I could have been amazing. But it's been two years and id have to be a flyer on a level 6 team. I've never flown, I dont have the tumbling skills, I'm not in the proper shape anymore (I'm still in great shape but no where near where I was when I cheered), and as much as I love my old gym and want to cheer with them I don't feel welcomed there anymore. (90% of the coaches DO NOT like me and happy they wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. Like I said, I made a lot of huge mistakes.) What should I do??? Is it too late for me to get back into cheer?? Is it worth it?? Or am I just feeling the retired cheerleader blues?