- Jun 23, 2010
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this made me cry.honestly, last year when i graduated, i bawled my eyes out the whole entire car ride home from my last practice, on day two of canadian nationals me and my one friend crumpled into each other because we both realized it was our last year to cheer together (we'd only known each other for a year but this girl was by best friend i had met through cheerleading) and then the banquet at the end of the year our coaches said speeches about all of the graduating seniors that would be leaving it took every single bone in my body for me to not cry when they were talking, and when it was time for everybody to get ready to leave, my flyer from early on in the season came up to me hugged me and started crying on my shoulder, when i asked her what was wrong she told me that i was the best (and first) back spot she had ever had and that she trusted me more then anybody else on the team and that she didnt want me to leave as soon as those words left her mouth i realized i did not under any circumstances want to leave that gym, i wanted to go back to grade 7 to the first year that i tried cheerleading at a time when wanted to give up on everything i wanted to experience that life altering moment when you step on to that ugly blue mat covered in sparkles just one last time, i wanted to put on my uniform bow and makeup and prance around like i owned that stage, but the reality of it all was that i couldnt, i had to make a choice, university or cheerleading and it was the hardest thing i have ever done, still even now i would kill to have all those moments we take for granted on that floor i just want one more chance, and i think that makes a huge difference, knowing your done, and wanting to be done are not the same thing if you still have the chance to cheer and want to do it, you will not understand how much you will miss it afterwards, and for those seniors who are done this year i have one thing to say, that very last time you compete, leave your heart on that floor, take in every second and do not regret a minute of that routine because when you look back it will have been one of the greatest experiences of your life
im seriously getting so depressed about this and i still have my senior and super senior year.
I had cheer taken away from me for nearly 3 seasons and its definitely given me a bigger appreciation. I love going to practice, i love throwing full out routines, i love competing, just everything about it to a much fuller extent. I dont take the practices or performances for granted anymore. Seeing so many girls go through the realization that it does end sometime sucks to see.
It still makes me so upset, i dont even know how to really express it.